resolution

Somehow I sense that 2008 would be a year to remember.
I don’t know what or why.
It may be positive or even negative… Who knows…

At the start of the year, I had refused to make a resolution cos I felt that 2008 had forced itself on me. Until I realised from a recent conversation that subconsciously, I already had one.

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I thereby resolve to open my heart
to rediscover love
in the little things...
in myself...

for myself.

it's all in the mind

Some things just aren't meant to be spoken...

Was really angry with myself last Friday. I felt as though I had jinxed myself for having mentioned certain things to people in the past few months.

"It'll be the last" I had said. Yet, as I uttered them, there was no denying the fact that I was hopeful. Perhaps... I had been a tad too hopeful.

But I'm very well aware that worrying won't solve anything.

I just want to be happy.

perhap, perhaps, perhaps...

with the recent discovery
of my loss of anonymity

with this naggy suspicion
of a promise that's broken

there came to me
a sad notion
to leave this diary
in desertion

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(perhaps my heart and mind are destined for isolation)

Been away for some time...
And this really isn't how I wanted to resume writing.

So many things to write on...
The dreams too many...
The recent struggle for good health...

But here I am...
With a vapourising desire to write my mind.