layers of guilt

I can manage a campaign, break it down in a timeline in phases and see it through to ensure the deadline is met. I can sit on a project while searching for inspiration and then be fired up at the last minute just to make it in time for the submission. But it simply escapes me how I never fail to underestimate my time in getting ready for a date.

I'd be mentally giving myself enough time at home to get ready and travel down by public transport. And the next thing I know, I find myself rushing for time and hailing a cab. And then I'd berate myself for missing the opportunity to take the bus or the mrt, which I love to do and for spending the money unnecessarily. Yet after all that, I'll still be late.

I know, I know, I shouldn't complain cos I only have myself to blame. But I was trying to find the root of the problem (yes, this is amongst one of my efforts to save money). And it's not even like I apply much make up... if you can call a quickie dab of sunblock, blusher, baby powder and maybe eyeliner that.

And then today it dawned on me... I just spend too much time in the shower and layering scents. If it's a special outing, like yesterday, all the more I'll be indulging myself in the full works - shampoo, shower gel, body scrub, body lotion and then I'll completely lose track of time. Then depending on my mood, I will decide what to wear based on my 'feel'... as the clock continues to tick.

It doesn't seem to make sense but I'm guilty of committing this over and over again! Urgh! But I still stand by layering scents and not applying perfume.

Am I alone here?

On hindsight, I did help to contribute to the economy by taking a cab yesterday. And I'm not just trying to justify myself... cab drivers are really having a tough time now...