square one

roller coaster, loops and winds
speedily turns me upside-down
yet brings me back to the very time
where it all began, right from the ground

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(few days more...
what secured me to my seat before had simply been false gravity)

Maybe I’m just too numb, too blind
To feel my gut or see His signs
But still in time, when grace ends soon
Should heart and brain not be in tune
I may give up on this long battle
Toss a coin and take a gamble