inertia

defying positive motion
my mind pauses and turns
and my heart, it mourns
in forlorn disposition
dwelling…
forgetting…
whatever had been sworn

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(07.07.07)

I’ve lost my bag and everything else in it…
Though technically, I didn’t lose it…

It was stolen.
But it didn’t matter did it?
I lost it. Period.

Gone were my new micro drive hard disk, keys to office, home and mailbox, business cards and work-related documents. It didn’t help that the bag was the only bag I had bought from my latest trip. And to make matters worse, it also dawned on me that the other things in my bag – ipod nano, a book, light blue pouch, floral satin pouch, woven purple pouch, metal bear key chain, ‘Neji’ (a Character from the Japanese anime, Naruto) key chain, metal boy key chain and hairclip were all special gifts from people who mattered a lot to me. Sigh… so much for trying to let go.

“They’re just things”, I’d psyche myself up. “Be grateful. It could’ve been worse - think about other important things which could have been stolen”.

And yet… at the next moment, my emotions overpower me.

I really, really. really must learn to detach myself from my belongings.

Thank God I had my wallet and both my handphones with me. It had taken me ages to finally get over the loss of my handphone which was a birthday gift, five months ago… I’d just die if they were stolen too.

I totally didn’t need any more heartaches.

And that’s for certain.